Connor's going to be a BIG BROTHER!
I'm 12 weeks pregnant! We're very excited, but nervous, too! I'm so excited to hold a new baby in my arms again, to rock a new baby, to kiss a new baby. I'm also excted to watch Connor react with a new baby. But, I'm, also, nervous...nervous about chasing a two year old around when I'm big and pregnant, nervous about chasing a two year old around while carrying an infant, nervous about figuring out a routine that includes a toddler and an infant! But, I know that Connor will do great. He's such a sweet boy and he's growing and changing so much. I know that he will love and adore a baby brother or baby sister. And, this baby couldn't ask for a better brother! He's going to love being the "big boy!"
But, I have to admit, I'm also a little sad. I'm sad that Connor is old enough to be a big brother. I'm sad that he will no longer be the baby in the family. I'm sad that I will no longer be able to give him my undivided attention. We have such a good time together! I really enjoy just being with him, doing things with him, and going places with him. We love to run, chase, play trains, do puzzles, read, sing, run errands, etc. And, I feel like my time will be limited with a new baby. I hate to take away time from Connor! But, I, also, am sad that the baby will never experience the undivided attention that Connor has had over the past two years. I know that most second time moms probably feel similar. And, the excited, good feelings far outway the nervous, sad feelings. I am looking forward to seeing Connor learn to be a big brother to a new baby. I'm looking forward to seeing Connor love this baby. And, I'm looking forward to seeing Connor and this baby develop a brother/brother or brother/sister relationship that I pray will be strong and loving.
I look forward to the next 6 + months. I look forward to feeling the baby kick and watching it grow inside me. But, I, also, look forward to enjoying every minute that I can with Connor. He's going to be the best big brother, but I want to enjoy every last minute of him as "my baby boy!"
By the way, I'm due on October 4th.